How an "Accountability Coach" Helped Me
Something that makes my life easy as a small business owner is having a fully functional website.
You can visit my little corner of the web and easily find out what I offer, how much it costs, and when sessions are available.
And do you know why I have a fully functional “goodness, this makes my life so much easier” website?
It’s because I hired an accountability coach.
Except…
This accountability coach wasn’t a human.
Nor was it an animal.
Or a tree, though we’re getting close.
My accountability coach was a vine and a shrub.
A vine and shrub brewed into ayahuasca, specifically.
And, if we’re being nitty gritty, I didn’t actually “hire” ayahuasca as an accountability coach. I simply signed up for my annual retreat in 2021 (I started working with ayahuasca in 2018 and generally go on one retreat per year), and then realized something: “Wait a minute – there are things I committed to at last year’s retreat that I HAVEN’T DONE YET!”
So I got to work.
Because ain’t no way, ain’t no how that I’m about to surrender to ayahuasca, saying, “Okay, Grandmother,” (it’s common to call ayahuasca “Grandmother” because she is a feminine flavor of consciousness), “I’m yours for the next 8-12 hours,” knowing that I have UNFINISHED BUSINESS ON MY SIDE OF THE STREET.
Did you know that you step outside of linear time when you enter an ayahuasca trance?
If ayahuasca wanted to teach me a lesson – and sometimes Grandma gotta teach you a lesson – psychedelic time distortion would mean that it could feel like the lesson was lasting SEVEN LIFETIMES??
Same with when ayahuasca blesses you with extraordinary experiences of bliss and ecstasy. The ceremony itself might be 8 hours in human time, but in your time-distorted inner world, you could feel like you’re experiencing centuries and centuries worth of bliss.
Centuries and centuries! Goodness, how I love plant medicines.
Being in right relationship with these medicines is important to me. So if I haven’t integrated what came up in the last ceremony, it’s really not right for me to partake again. Because you don’t plug into the literal wisdom of the Universe, download it directly into your veins and then be like, “You know, maybe I’m not going to act on that, maybe I’ll just go drink a bit more ayahuasca and see how it goes.”
This has gotten weird, hasn’t it?
Anyway. I’m super into Human Design at the moment. And Human Design is all about the Science of Individuation. It’s about learning what authentically works for you as a human.
Not what social media bro #1 says SHOULD work for you, or what you’re trying-their-best-but-kinda-clueless parents conditioned you to believe.
But what actually works for you.
And, while I have friends who absolutely make progress on their most important goals when they sign up for $10,000 accountability coaching packages…
That would do nothing to me. Paying someone to hold me accountable doesn’t work for my particular personality type.
(If you happen to be a Questioner or Rebel in Gretchen Rubin’s “Four Tendencies” framework, paying for accountability probably doesn’t do much for you either.)
But my relationship with ayahuasca?! Staying in right relation with the plant medicine that has transformed my life in mind-blowing-ly beautiful ways?
Well, that inspires action.
Xo,
Your friend who wants her baby to be raised in a world where the adults in charge know what actually works for them
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